I try so hard.

Ah..right..well.
I went to hospital, and, everything in my spine is good, didn't get all good news though, I knew things for me couldn't be good for to long. I got angry today..for no reason at all.. all that anger I'm repressing is building up, it'll be interesting when I finally crack. Sigh.

>_< Mum always gets my hopes up, ''things will get better Zoe'' - ''I think he still likes you Zoe'' - Things won't get better, and, he doesn't still like me, at all. Sigh, I can't go on loving him forever I need to give up, and, I am, I almost completely don't love him.
I told my mum about this situation with the boys thing she just said ''stay single wait for the right one to come along'' What if the right one doesn't come along? Or, he's right infront of me I just don't see it.
I'm trying to give up on love, but, its a feeling I can't help, So, guess I can't.

I don't remember much from today, things are all blurred, Although, I did wish upon a star today, not like it does anything, but, was worth a shot.
Gawd, I love the night sky. :3

I'm spending tomorrow with Sarah, so, that'll take my mind off everything, might cheer me up a bit too, then, theres school monday, back to the fighting, bitchyness and girls who can't get enough of themselves.

I don't know my feelings much anymore.
All I know is, even though I have nightmares alot, I'm happier dreaming.