Life is failing at the moment, I'm falling deeper and deeper into spiralling depression.. Why, do these things happen to me? Why is all this pressure put down on me? I don't know why I take things so personally, I shouldn't even think this way at the age of 13, I shouldn't be thinking about ending my life to escape the things I'm going through. I know this isn't right, I know I need to change but I can't yet, Not yet. It's to hard, and I can't give up on life yet, because of the people I love I could never hurt them that much, I want to get through this rough patch in my life, but I'm struggling. Their are people out there the same as me, same problems same everything but nobody will ever know how it feels to be just like me, because its my brain that things this way.
Do you know what its like, to feel like your being ripped apart everyday? I do.
Do you know what its like to go through so much pain, that you just want to end it all? I do.
Do you know what its like to want to be so angry at yourself, you want to throw yourself out of the car? I do.
Do you know what its like, to know your dying? I do.
Do you know what its like to go to the doctors every month of your life? I do.
Do you know what its like to appear completely messed up to other people? I do.
Do you know what its like to be so close to death? I do.
All the things I feel shouldn't be felt by a 13 year old.... so...why do I feel this way?