28th Of July.

Day starts -- bad dreams are over -- Arrive late to school once again. -- On my way to options class, I see Kayle, -.-'' my mind become cloudy I look down, I see him turn around and laugh, not sure if his laugh was directed at me or not, either way, I got pretty annoyed, and he's all gangsta again? I hope he knows what he's getting himself into because for once in my useless life, when someone happens to him, I don't think I'll be there to pick up the pieces he can move on with his life now because I'm clearly, not involved in his.

Back to the point of what happened in my day.. it's second period, options class, I swear I'm going to punch Frank in the face though, the amount of times he turned off my computer today, it's not even funny. :l

Nothing interested happened till maths class, I actually felt, happy, which I haven't felt in a few weeks.. actually, I haven't felt that happy since I hung out with Jacqob, or atleast smiled/laughed as much.

Science -- I had Sharron be my psych that lesson, figure out my dreams and after hearing what she said, I think she's right? I used to see myself as a monster and in my dreams I continuously try kill it, but I'm still the same depressed person inside and I'm also really angry at someone. -- Although, I'm not that angry at anyone I just never show my anger when I am angry so it's a build up.

But the whole day its the same things playing over and over in my head, sigh, I don't know what to do about it.

Lately I've been so tired I can never figure anything out, I've spent my nights talking to either Melody, Jacqob or Sharron. >_< When I'm in conversations with them I never want them to end.

Sigh, I'm scared of what'll happen soon I think, :/ Mine and Jacqob's relationship might end up like mine and Kayles? Friends > Best friends > Him liking me > Me liking him > Going out > Breaking up > Not talking or ever having a close relationship again?
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That'll be a nightmare coming to life.
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I hell reckon Jacqob stalks my blogs now, so, I'm only writing stuff its ok for him to read. xD Is sorry Jacqob.