Todays Feeling: Lonely.
Heh, first time in a long time..I've actually felt like a part of me is missing, my dads gone back to England and I haven't heard from him in days.. will he ever contact me and my brother again? Or is this the end? I love him with all my heart I mean he's my dad, but I blame myself for him leaving, He said, part of the reason he's leaving is because he can't see me go through hospital and have this huge surgery, he can't stand to see me suffer.. so maybe..if I didn't need the surgery..maybe..he'd still be here..?
And now without dads money, mums struggling, she had to sell things today just to buy food, and by food I mean..frozen dinners, microwave oven things, my surgerys in 2 weeks and things keep getting worse and worse the closer it gets, I have to try stay strong for my younger brother though..he's going to see a phsych. soon, and he needs me to be there,who knows I might be there talking to the phsych with him. >.> This family, this life, is going down hill.
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